j. i wonder why you get so sad. i question it all the time. you have everything it seems. beautiful parents, nephews, and siblings. you have good friends, that check on you periodically while you sleep, to make sure you're alright. you have people that love you, the numbers higher than you know. you are the most intelligent and interesting person i've ever met, hands down. please understand, i am here. i wonder, why so many people my own age seem so unhappy with the way things are going. to the point of not even wanting to exist. obliterate themselves. K.O'd. Game over. please talk to me. we can make it through. there is happiness to be had.